Around this time each year, I notice I find myself yearning to be outdoors. I love being outside in general, but I think it might be because the days are shorter and I am spending more time indoors at my internship. It’s also much more comfortable outside. Although it’s cold here in New England, I find I’d rather layer up against the cold than have to deal with mosquitos, ticks and pollen.
That being said, as the year comes to a close, here’s a photographic look back at some of my time in nature, both alone and with my kids.
2018 was centered on my healing and recovery. Recovering my health, recovering my energy and reconnecting with some of the things that brings me joy.
On today’s Full moon, I am quietly celebrating my 90th consecutive day of showing up for my creativity in the form of a daily music practice. As I continue my daily practice, I wanted to pause today because 90 days represents a milestone. When I first started out, I knew that my only goal was to show up,—be in 5 minutes or an hour.
Over the last 90 days, I’ve learned that I could show up for what was important to me even at times when I did not feel my best. When I didn’t want to. When I would rather watch another movie or sleep. When I had come home late from my first concert in over a year. I showed up. And in doing so, some of the things I accomplished over the last 90 days has been:
- Taught myself how to play the ukulele
- Wrote 5 songs (including a children’s song. Currently working on a 6th as I type this)
- Started learning how to play the banjo
- Started appreciating scales
- Played my frame drum
- Got a lot better on the cajon
- Learned a cover song (“Swim Good” by Frank Ocean)
- Discovered some amazing artists
- Shared a song with a friend
- Refreshed my “old” songs
I intend to write more about this process and the insights that have come as a result, but I wanted to reflect a bit here since things have been relatively quiet on my website for a while. One of the most important things that I got out of this practice was that it created a container for me to process what the last six months has been for me. What being diagnosed with Lupus has been for me and my family. These songs are healing ones. On days where I felt lonely and sad, a song became a friend and lifted me out of the darkness. My depression has lessened tremendously and I feel motivated in ways that eluded me before I began this practice. I intend to share this music with you in the future. I thank you for being here. Happy Full Moon.