19 days ago, I ended my 30 day social media fast. Some of you may be wondering how I’m doing in my return to the land of social media. Some of the pros– I am happy to admit that overall I have been doing very well with maintaining balance with social media. I have been keeping my weekly schedule with instagram, and I have not been back on Facebook yet. Facebook wasn’t really fulfilling me much and so I haven’t been compelled to go back on. I have also been maintaining a daily exercise practice, which I started while on the social media detox. It is a combination of walking, running and strength training, which has had a beneficial impact on my sleep and my mood.
As for the cons, in full transparency, I feel like I have been overusing Youtube. Youtube was included in my social media fast even though I felt I had a pretty ok relationship it. But going a month + without social media gave me a lot of perspective. So, this weekend, after what I felt was a significant increase in usage, I wondered what happened. What was it that drove me to increase my YouTube consumption much more than the others platforms? And why is it making me uncomfortable?
Before I get into my insight, I’ll admit I like watching videos. I like watching my favorite self-development, DIY youtubers do their thing. It’s inspiring to me. But what I also realized is that I was also searching for some sort of gratification. As I mentioned in one of earlier posts, sometimes we search outside ourselves for gratification. This in and of itself isn’t horrible. But when we’re searching more for inspiration outside ourselves than within, it’s time to take a step back and re-evaluate. Which I did. And what I came to was that I was missing the gratification and motivation I got from the simple practice of writing and posting on my blog each day.
There was something powerful about knowing I had made a public commitment to write and post daily that made me show up. Eventually this practice became something I looked forward to and got a lot out of. But once I stopped my social media fast, I stopped the daily writing. I actually hadn’t written much since then and it affected my ability to resist the habit of overconsumption of media. By not committing to what had become a good habit, I fell back into bad ones. I also missed writing and posting here. So, with that being said, I will resume my writing daily practice and will post here on my blog twice a week, Mondays and Thursdays. I look forward to getting back into this practice which brought me immense joy and a sense of accomplishment.
I’m also planning to limit my YouTube consumption to the weekend. Check back this coming Thursday!
In the meantime, Be well.